Blogs from the bath

One of the things I talk about I. The book is doing social media in a way that feels right for you. It struck me that I have the perfect opportunity to blog daily but miss it.

Every morning in the bath I check my social media. It got me thinking, If I check my social media why don’t I do my social media too.

So for the next few weeks before the invasion of the kids and life changes forever, I’m gonna try this. I haven’t worked out the pattern of what I will do, I just know I need to be regular.

I’ve attached a picture I painted quickly for myself yesterday. With all the book prep I realized I hadn’t got my hands covered in paint for about a month. That causes my anxiety levels to gently rise. As I was playing with my gelli plate I realized something really profound. My heart is healed. I may have scars from all the miscarriages but my heart has been stitched back together. I feel more whole than I have done in years

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Bringing my dreams of being an author into reality

I’ve completed my first interview for my book which is about how those of us who are frustrated creatives can launch their creative career and get paid to create work they love. A subject which is close to my heart as over the last 8 years I have watched artists I love succeed where I have struggled. I know its not the quality of my work, but there is something more than just producing things people love. I can do that and my work sells.

I’ve done courses on marketing, on using social media and can totally do all of these things and for a period of time I have increased my sales and done well. But I haven’t succeeded in the way that I would want to. It has always struck me that there is something more. What is that more? So as I always do I am going on a journey of research. A journey to interview those who are experts, those who have succeeded and made that jump.

Some of the answers will be very personal and will answer my questions, but I’m sure I’m not the only creative who is saying I want more, I am more, I want to be able to make a living doing the things I love. So the answer is to talk to people who have “made it” creatively, I want to talk to psychologists and neuroscientists because I’m sure the answer is in the way we think about it.

As an Occupational Therapist the things a I will always look at is volition, so our motivation, our values and our beliefs. It will be in our habituation so the roles we hold and the way we view them, and how we spend our time. It will be in the environment we create for ourself, both the physical atmosphere we create in but the social world we inhabit. All of these along side the important skills set of how to use social networks, how to platforms for sale and how to market ourselves.

Join me on my journey of “More”

WE ARE MORE than our histories, WE ARE MORE then the self defeating thoughts we have. WE ARE MORE and together lets discover some practical solutions so we can be MORE

If you are interested in finding out about the progress of the book and be the first to know when it is launched, head over to the front page there’s a sign up form on there

Cardboard cutout

Life is more than being a cardboard cutout. Being present in the world but making no difference. Squashed into the roles and expectations others and yourself have for you.

My question is what is your strength? The thing is, I’m beginning realise, that it isn’t something that you are good at necessarily, more that it is something that gives you strength. The thing you do where you begin to find passion and fire. The place where you feel alive and full of vitality.

The problem with being good and competent at something, is that you can spend the rest of your life being competent. Somehow you end up not being who you were created to be. A cardboard cutout, that does a job, but isn’t you.

So changes need to be made.

For me I need to clear clutter. Literal clutter which will make my husband so much happier, emotional clutter where I’m trying to perform rather than be present and activities. These the things that keep me numb, like computer games and fiction, rather than those that keep me passionate, like community transformation. There’s nothing wrong with games of books in and of themselves, it’s just they steal me away from being who I was created to be.

Deep cuts, big change but becoming truly me.

What is it that you find your strength in, the thing that grows you?

What are you prepared to do to make it happen?

Eureka

I had one of those Eureka moments. for a long time I have tried to get my art work and my craft work to fit into one umbrella. With absolutely no success. I suddenly realised that they are not the same thing. Ultimately they could dovetail, but here and now they are separate and to try and combine them has been stressing me out and causing me not to enjoy or do either.

Hence no posts here and not keeping up with the schedule of activities I set for myself.

So the plan
Well I guess I develop my simply captivating line which will be simple design home ware and cards. Things I like and find attractive, which could cover a number of the ideas I have floating around my head. What that will do is free my up for my art of be my hobby. For the pure creation to be something I do just for me, and if people want to purchase it or like it enough then that’s another issue and a bridge I can cross at that time.

Grateful Friday

Today is the infamous snow day and living in Wales under the little area the Met office had given a red weather warning for, there was little chance I was going to get away without seeing my fair share of snow.  And I did.  So beautiful, so crisp … so cold.

I made it to work for a whole 2 minutes, before being told to leave as there were rumours that the trains were going to stop any time.  I was home half an hour before they stopped.  I am so incredibly grateful for the member of staff who texted in with the rail update and to the unit manager for sending me home.  I got the best possible outcome, a full days pay as I got in and got sent home, getting home safely, not having to walk home 6 miles down hill in the snow and a unexpected day to me.

A good day.

Noticing

So I got thinking.  The most natural post to write next seemed to be about how to breathe.  Afterall as far as I can tell when you are developing a new set of skills, or reapplying them to your life you need the short term solution, the medium and long term ones.  So discussing a tried and tested method seemed like a great idea.  Also showing off a little and blinding with science seemed fun, if I’m honest.  Making myself look good always seems like a nice option

My journey seems to be taking me on a completely different path.  were I ended up was with noticing.

I mentioned in the last post that my breathing through my mouth I was becoming more aware of not only how I was breathing, but I was becoming more aware of my movements.  Unconsciously slowing and moving in a more deliberate manner.

That sense of awareness has continued.  Probably also aided by a new set of glasses bringing life into new focus.  I live in a valley, surrounded by mountains.  Too often it is so easy to keep your head down, immersed in whatever life is throwing at you.  Lifting my eyes up, I find my breath stolen by the beauty around me.

I am also noticing and valuing friends more.  Suddenly more aware of the small moments of expressed friendship and gratitude. causing me to feel more loved.

Noticing… causing me to open my eyes.. causing me to see what I already have… realising that what I am seeking for is already mine… allowing me to feel alive, at peace and centred in a way I have been seeking for.

The power of simply breathing and being is proving to be amazing.

Dreaming of Spring – Creative Everyday

Dreaming of Spring

This is the piece I have been working on this week.  Some of the earlier pictures are over in the work in progress gallery.

We are due for snow and all I can think is that I want spring.  I want the end to winter… so I guess I’m going to create it in my own space… because I can.

There are now 2 layers of resin.  I’m hoping to finish it with a final level of paint and sanding down the sides and the finishing touches by the end of the week.

Things I’ve learnt when doing this

  • I really enjoy using pallet knives and love creating depth just using paint and paint mediums
  • Putting the leaves on to early before the resin stops moving causes the leaves to move from where I placed them
  • I think I’m beginning to enjoy creating the depth purely from the paint and wonder if long term as my skills develop I will end up with more traditional paintings and not mixed media.  Although I guess the reason I’m drawn to mixed media is that I get to use all sorts of skill sets as I get bored really easily.

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